postalnori
11-16-2009, 01:10 AM
This is long, I apologize. But I just need to get it off my chest to people who share the same fear as me.
When I was learning how to drive, I wasn't scared. It was probably because I had an experienced driver with me, who knew how to handle newcomers. When I drive with my mom, she just freaks out...I got my permit and it was all good.
I stopped practicing and in the next year I had to take my road test. I took lessons again and had some help from my friends. Got my license and I was happy. My sister and I (both got our license since we're twins) went out that day and drove to another town to visit a friend. It was fine.
Well, one day I was with my friend and sister and we decided to go out shopping. I drove and I made a turn where on-coming cars were. (I get confused with layouts of streets). I was freaked out, but other people stopped for me to do a U-turn. I felt uneasy, embarrassed, and stupid. I had to do a detour after that to get home. Later I had to change lanes and I was too slow so some guy beeped at me. The guy drove up to me and called me a retard...that didn't help my day.
I went home and made my sister drive us to the mall. I didn't drive after that.
First day of my senior year in high school, my sister hits a parked car in the senior lot. There were onlookers and everything...(teen pressure...) What a way to return to school. After school, the driver came up to us (we knew him too) and told us to pay damages.
We never had to because he never asked us about it after that...but I can't drive anymore.
The only time I drive is to school, which is close, or to drop my best friend off (2 minutes away).
I get so overwhelmed by what other drivers think, getting into an accident, insurance (I don't want my parents paying), and worst...just hitting someone.
I can't stand getting yelled at by other drivers and since I fit the stereotypical "Asian woman who can't drive", I know strangers will ridicule me....
When I was learning how to drive, I wasn't scared. It was probably because I had an experienced driver with me, who knew how to handle newcomers. When I drive with my mom, she just freaks out...I got my permit and it was all good.
I stopped practicing and in the next year I had to take my road test. I took lessons again and had some help from my friends. Got my license and I was happy. My sister and I (both got our license since we're twins) went out that day and drove to another town to visit a friend. It was fine.
Well, one day I was with my friend and sister and we decided to go out shopping. I drove and I made a turn where on-coming cars were. (I get confused with layouts of streets). I was freaked out, but other people stopped for me to do a U-turn. I felt uneasy, embarrassed, and stupid. I had to do a detour after that to get home. Later I had to change lanes and I was too slow so some guy beeped at me. The guy drove up to me and called me a retard...that didn't help my day.
I went home and made my sister drive us to the mall. I didn't drive after that.
First day of my senior year in high school, my sister hits a parked car in the senior lot. There were onlookers and everything...(teen pressure...) What a way to return to school. After school, the driver came up to us (we knew him too) and told us to pay damages.
We never had to because he never asked us about it after that...but I can't drive anymore.
The only time I drive is to school, which is close, or to drop my best friend off (2 minutes away).
I get so overwhelmed by what other drivers think, getting into an accident, insurance (I don't want my parents paying), and worst...just hitting someone.
I can't stand getting yelled at by other drivers and since I fit the stereotypical "Asian woman who can't drive", I know strangers will ridicule me....