alycat
08-31-2008, 02:11 PM
I took drivers ed in highschool. I drove ALOT in driver's ed, in fact I was the very first to drive. I wasn't really that scared driving at the time. I passed my permit test with a 90. After drivers ed, I was old enough to get my license. The first time I practiced driving with my mom she freaked out after about two minutes and I pulled over to the side of the road, got out and haven't gotten behind the wheel since. I can't imagine something THAT small could have done it, but I dunno..
Now I am 27, going on 28. I have a husband and a four year old son. We live on a navy base and most things we need are in walking distance if I have to get them. However, if my son has an appointment, my husband has to ask time off from work (the taxis here in Guam are EXPENSIVE..) to take us and his work just doesn't understand. My husband is good about it but definatly lets me know when they give him crap about it. He is in the Navy so it's kind of hard to get certain days off. When we were in Hawaii he had a real jerk of a boss that kept telling him I needed to learn to drive asap.
It's honestly embarassing. The thought of getting beind the wheel sends me into the sweats and I start to panick. I worry I will get in an accident, kill someone or myself and my family, get pulled over and yelled at, hit someone elses's car and get yelled at, have a panick attack and freeze up at a light or intersection and literally not be able to move with car horns blaring around me. I think it might partly be that I also suffer from social anxiety. And alot of the fears that I have with driving seem to be social situations..being stuck in traffic with other cars, having a panick attack at a light with other cars beeping and yelling at me, getting in an accident and either hurting or killing someone or having them scream at me and call me every name in the book, possibly getting violant, having cops pull me over and making me cry, etc..
It's so hard to tell people this because NO ONE gets it..they can understand fear of snakes, heights, spiders, airplanes, etc but they can't figure out why ANYONE would not want the freedom of being behind the wheel. I try my hardest to avoid telling people because they just give you that look. In fact I had a dream a week back that my husband found it easier to lie to people and say I couldn't drive because I got a DUI than having to tell them I have a phobia of driving. Like people would understand that better. Eventually I have to tell people, especially the ones that keep asking me to go places with them and will probably expect the same favor in return someday. Whenever getting my license or learning to drive over again gets brought up I get really, really aggitated and uncomfortable.
Now I am 27, going on 28. I have a husband and a four year old son. We live on a navy base and most things we need are in walking distance if I have to get them. However, if my son has an appointment, my husband has to ask time off from work (the taxis here in Guam are EXPENSIVE..) to take us and his work just doesn't understand. My husband is good about it but definatly lets me know when they give him crap about it. He is in the Navy so it's kind of hard to get certain days off. When we were in Hawaii he had a real jerk of a boss that kept telling him I needed to learn to drive asap.
It's honestly embarassing. The thought of getting beind the wheel sends me into the sweats and I start to panick. I worry I will get in an accident, kill someone or myself and my family, get pulled over and yelled at, hit someone elses's car and get yelled at, have a panick attack and freeze up at a light or intersection and literally not be able to move with car horns blaring around me. I think it might partly be that I also suffer from social anxiety. And alot of the fears that I have with driving seem to be social situations..being stuck in traffic with other cars, having a panick attack at a light with other cars beeping and yelling at me, getting in an accident and either hurting or killing someone or having them scream at me and call me every name in the book, possibly getting violant, having cops pull me over and making me cry, etc..
It's so hard to tell people this because NO ONE gets it..they can understand fear of snakes, heights, spiders, airplanes, etc but they can't figure out why ANYONE would not want the freedom of being behind the wheel. I try my hardest to avoid telling people because they just give you that look. In fact I had a dream a week back that my husband found it easier to lie to people and say I couldn't drive because I got a DUI than having to tell them I have a phobia of driving. Like people would understand that better. Eventually I have to tell people, especially the ones that keep asking me to go places with them and will probably expect the same favor in return someday. Whenever getting my license or learning to drive over again gets brought up I get really, really aggitated and uncomfortable.